A picture

Rain

Rain's really pretty.

It makes everything look so sad though.

But the clouds were really pretty. Dull but pretty.

The leaves drooped like a willow. Willows are pretty.

Everything's pretty.

A rat

My dad caught another rat today.
He's gunna drown it.
I had this sudden image of having no oxygen - missing that sweet air.
I just want to open the cage and let it go but I can't

Rats are pests but they're living things.
What do I do..

Life for me is so paradoxical. It sucks.

Mandarin Tree

Sometimes I go outside just to look at my garden.
I haven't done that in a while but today I did.

The colour of our mandarin tree really captured me.
I miss Vietnam.

The feeling

When I am loved, there is this gap inside me that is filled.
It's a gap that can only be filled by love.
And I am always so afraid to have that gap again.