Breath - Inuyasha AMV
None of these are mine and I do not own the song or the video. Copy right goes to the owners.
This song reminds me of my year 5, when I first made Bebo. I loved Inuyasha so much and this song made an AMV I found so touching. This wasn't the exact video, but I think it's just as good.
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Curiosity
Curiosity
Yeah she was right.. curiosity does kill the cat. But I want to fulfill my curiosity by learning and knowing. The things I learn, I need to know. But she's right.. it does hurt to find out that people do things behind your back. I'll just leave it as that so people do not know what I'm talking about in specific.
One-time Anemsia right now would be nice. Memories hurt, and knowing what happened behind me hurts. But I wonder if I really know what I'm asking for..
Edited at 6pm
And then my mum made me some chicken wings around this time.. I ate them.. sitting there at times and stared so blankly. My sister thought I had a stomach ache..
Kids..
I've lost my appetite for food and I wanna tell my mum that I don't want to eat.. She won't be happy..
Yeah she was right.. curiosity does kill the cat. But I want to fulfill my curiosity by learning and knowing. The things I learn, I need to know. But she's right.. it does hurt to find out that people do things behind your back. I'll just leave it as that so people do not know what I'm talking about in specific.
One-time Anemsia right now would be nice. Memories hurt, and knowing what happened behind me hurts. But I wonder if I really know what I'm asking for..
Edited at 6pm
And then my mum made me some chicken wings around this time.. I ate them.. sitting there at times and stared so blankly. My sister thought I had a stomach ache..
Kids..
I've lost my appetite for food and I wanna tell my mum that I don't want to eat.. She won't be happy..
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Feelings
Feelings
Read my blog if you care or are interested. If you're reading it just cos you're bored. Please leave. On the same note, I really hate it when people talk to me on MSN because they're bored. I talk to get to know that person or have fun, even if it's on MSN. Again, if you're reading this and talk to me in the future cos you have the intention of overcoming boredom. Please don't do it. That word 'intention' in the previous sentence is really important. I'm not some Facebook or w/e shit you people do to overcome boredom.
Before I begin this post, I'd just like to point out the idea that Engrish is stupid :). Using the below example, can I not conclude that english is stupid?
'Stupid idiot'.
I use that term alot, and it does make me look stupid myself. Why? Simple, an idiot is someone stupid. So by saying stupid I'm just restating the facts. Some english teacher may say that this is improper grammar and shit. But if it were to be used in a famous poem, bullshit would be made up such as 'The author uses the term stupid to emphasise the fact that the described character is an idiot'. Get my idea?
Now for the real thing.
Feelings.
Currently, my wish is to lose all my feelings. I've considered it too many times.
Love, I get hurt. Hate, I hurt others. Cry, what's there to cry for when things keep changing and won't change back. Empathy, empathise for those kids in the 3rd World Countries. Yes.. but sometimes I ask why. This world is so stupid and the least I ask for now is to lose my feelings.
Feeleings hurt. Love hurts you or the other person. Hate, you hurt their feelings or lead to anger. Cry, what am I really crying for? Time won't give me back what I want. Feel sorry for those kids? What can I do about it? No I can't be fucked to raise some stupid thing. Leave that to the other dib shits. And sometimes I dream about being rich so I can help these kids out. But you know.. money is evil that it can change someone's path itself. I'd never know.
Really.. fuck feelings. I hate them.
And for those who are reading.. Today, I was teaching my sister. As her usualy self, she would forget EVERYTHING within a minute. Normally, I'd scream at her.. But I was just so pissed that I slapped.... I slapped myself so hard right across the face. And I felt like banging my head somewhere -sigh-
Read my blog if you care or are interested. If you're reading it just cos you're bored. Please leave. On the same note, I really hate it when people talk to me on MSN because they're bored. I talk to get to know that person or have fun, even if it's on MSN. Again, if you're reading this and talk to me in the future cos you have the intention of overcoming boredom. Please don't do it. That word 'intention' in the previous sentence is really important. I'm not some Facebook or w/e shit you people do to overcome boredom.
Before I begin this post, I'd just like to point out the idea that Engrish is stupid :). Using the below example, can I not conclude that english is stupid?
'Stupid idiot'.
I use that term alot, and it does make me look stupid myself. Why? Simple, an idiot is someone stupid. So by saying stupid I'm just restating the facts. Some english teacher may say that this is improper grammar and shit. But if it were to be used in a famous poem, bullshit would be made up such as 'The author uses the term stupid to emphasise the fact that the described character is an idiot'. Get my idea?
Now for the real thing.
Feelings.
Currently, my wish is to lose all my feelings. I've considered it too many times.
Love, I get hurt. Hate, I hurt others. Cry, what's there to cry for when things keep changing and won't change back. Empathy, empathise for those kids in the 3rd World Countries. Yes.. but sometimes I ask why. This world is so stupid and the least I ask for now is to lose my feelings.
Feeleings hurt. Love hurts you or the other person. Hate, you hurt their feelings or lead to anger. Cry, what am I really crying for? Time won't give me back what I want. Feel sorry for those kids? What can I do about it? No I can't be fucked to raise some stupid thing. Leave that to the other dib shits. And sometimes I dream about being rich so I can help these kids out. But you know.. money is evil that it can change someone's path itself. I'd never know.
Really.. fuck feelings. I hate them.
And for those who are reading.. Today, I was teaching my sister. As her usualy self, she would forget EVERYTHING within a minute. Normally, I'd scream at her.. But I was just so pissed that I slapped.... I slapped myself so hard right across the face. And I felt like banging my head somewhere -sigh-
Saturday, November 13, 2010
It seems
It seems...
I'm mentioned a few times in this blogger about the time i started to view this world so badly at year 5 or 6.. But today when my mum was talking about my grandma being in hospital and having not long to live, i realised back in year 3 or 4 i had already started.
Back in year 3 or 4, I couldn't sleep or get nightmares that my loved ones would die soon. I realised at that time at how fast time goes. At that time, I had already looked back and saw how time flew so quickly when you realise your existence. As a baby, you don't know you exist. But by the time you're 4, it just hits you that you're alive. For me, I had to realise the cruelty of life by year 3 or 4, after realising my existence at 4 of course.
I looked back and I saw that it's been 3-4 years since I came to Australia and it's been so fast.
My mum said today at the table 'As the daughter, I would do anything to keep my parents alive, but their time will always come'. Something like that. And she's right.. Time's something I can't stop. Change is something I can't. Silvery hairs are things I can't stop. Wrinkly skin can't be stopped. I'm just repeating things too much but it's true.
Up till year 8, everything was still fun. Now it gets all serious and stuff. But I'm not doing so well.
It may be irrelevant but I thinking of this stuff reminds me of the time I used to catch dragonflies in Vietnam with my cousin. I was really good at it and I'd never harm them. And then there was the time I saw the silkworm moths and they were so beautiful. And we humans are just so cruel. I hate us so much.
I'm mentioned a few times in this blogger about the time i started to view this world so badly at year 5 or 6.. But today when my mum was talking about my grandma being in hospital and having not long to live, i realised back in year 3 or 4 i had already started.
Back in year 3 or 4, I couldn't sleep or get nightmares that my loved ones would die soon. I realised at that time at how fast time goes. At that time, I had already looked back and saw how time flew so quickly when you realise your existence. As a baby, you don't know you exist. But by the time you're 4, it just hits you that you're alive. For me, I had to realise the cruelty of life by year 3 or 4, after realising my existence at 4 of course.
I looked back and I saw that it's been 3-4 years since I came to Australia and it's been so fast.
My mum said today at the table 'As the daughter, I would do anything to keep my parents alive, but their time will always come'. Something like that. And she's right.. Time's something I can't stop. Change is something I can't. Silvery hairs are things I can't stop. Wrinkly skin can't be stopped. I'm just repeating things too much but it's true.
Up till year 8, everything was still fun. Now it gets all serious and stuff. But I'm not doing so well.
It may be irrelevant but I thinking of this stuff reminds me of the time I used to catch dragonflies in Vietnam with my cousin. I was really good at it and I'd never harm them. And then there was the time I saw the silkworm moths and they were so beautiful. And we humans are just so cruel. I hate us so much.
Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday Kimberly. :) Something I should have done last year. I made this blog on the 11/2/09 so xD.
End of post. Wish you enjoyed your day. :)
And. I'm sorry ^^
End of post. Wish you enjoyed your day. :)
And. I'm sorry ^^
Monday, November 1, 2010
Rain
Oh rain.. why cry with me..
I look back sometimes, and saw all the mistakes I've made.. but perhaps I've halted today and realised such a fool I am. It seems as if I would only learn if I was to be through pain. For so many times, I'd fail things and just say 'Oh well'. I don't meet the expectations I make for myself, yet I never try when trying to set out these expectations. Damn myself..
I look back sometimes, and saw all the mistakes I've made.. but perhaps I've halted today and realised such a fool I am. It seems as if I would only learn if I was to be through pain. For so many times, I'd fail things and just say 'Oh well'. I don't meet the expectations I make for myself, yet I never try when trying to set out these expectations. Damn myself..
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