Sometimes..

Sometimes..
I look up to stare at the clouds and float away with them, forgetting this world.

Sometimes..
I look up at the trees and imagine that this world used to be a forest.

Sometimes..
Just sometimes..

Inuyasha: A Feudal Tale

And yet.. Inuyasha is just another tale.

A man

This world used to be Heaven,
Then it became Earth,
But now it's Hell.

That's besides the point of this post.
First of, apologies for not posting for at least a week.. I've been lazy and net was down for about 4-5 days. Now, onto with the post.

So.. I got my "L's". Frankly I'm quite worried about my driving abilities. I doze off a lot.. and that kind of dozing off might lead to some trouble. And when I do drive with my dad I'm worried more about him than for myself. My dad was literally grabbing onto his seat the first time I drove with him.

Before I actually started driving with my dad, he hired an instructor for me. Which leads to this post.
From car to relationships.. gee..

So I found the instructor really cool. I was quite surprised that there were Asian adults like him out there. He tells me his life story and asks me questions its cool.

He tells me how he came over when he was 10 I think? He told me the obvious stuff of course like how it was so different back then. He studied till 15 and was expected to be quite independent. He had to find a job etc. He told me how he loved his $2000 car so much and it was all very funny and interesting.

Then we came to the topic of relationships. He sort of shared the same view I do.
He asked me if I have a girlfriend etc, and then started telling about love: When you're young, you have so much energy. Use that energy now cos if you don't then you become old and you lose all that.

He tells me something like missing his younger self.. I mean who wouldn't. He missed playing hard to get, cos as an adult now it isn't the same. What is playing hard to get O_O.

Interesting stuff from an Asian adult :).

To end this post I leave a Vietnamese song
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mp5twJAO6Qw

Lyrics
Chuyện ngày xưa của tui,- Here's my story
nhà gần bên có cô bạn thân - there was a close friend (girl) that lived near me
Ngày tháng ấy ta như trẻ thơ, - we were very young then
thật đẹp biết bao!-very beautiful and handsome
Nàng làm thơ trao tặng tui,- she wrote a letter to me
đêm về tui viết những khúc nhạc - and at home I would write songs
Rồi ngẩn ngơ những lúc em tươi cười quên hết âu lo - and think of the times you smile I forget everything else
Thời gian trôi cứ trôi thật mao, - time went by very quickly
tình yêu tui lớn lên cùng em, - my love for you grew
mà tui không giám nói lời yêu với em - but I don't have the guts to tell you
Rồi một hôm em sang nhà chơi,- then one day you came over
em bóa tin em biết yêu rồi, - you told me that you know how to love
thật ngẹn ngòa khi em đã yêu người không phải tui. - it turns out that you love someone - not me.
Lòng tui đau thật đau khi thấy em yêu người ta - my heart ache so much seeing you love someone else
Chuyện tình mình bao lâu mơ ước đã tan theo gió trôi về đâu - all my dreams for us has gone lost with the wind
Ngâm nguồi thương cho tình tui, sao chỉ thấy héo úa tim sầu - (something about being in grief)
Chẳng được gần em, bên em như bao mộng ước đang giở dan - can't be next to you, I wish things were simpler
Ngày xưa ta gân nhau không giống như ta ngày nay - things are not the same any more.
Chẳng phải buồn cô đơn mong nhơ đêm đêm nhứt nhói như giờ đây - (something about dreaming at night)
người đã đi theo người ta chỉ còn lại kí ức phai nhòa - you have gone with someone else, leaving only fading memories
Chuyện một người yêu cô bạn thân thôi nay đành lỡ...... từ đây - the story of a girl that I loved.. beings here? o.o

Hating yourself

In life, the best thing you could do is to hate yourself.

I'm glad this has been one of my morals (if that's the right word).

When you make a mistake, blame yourself. And that's why life is full of regrets, well, at least mine is. Every time I look back, there's always a mistake. That's what being a human is after all. Still... others don't hate themselves I think. I just do.

And, the game of DotA just reflects on this idea. In DotA, if I lose a game, I look back and see what I did wrong. I try not to blame others unless it is that obvious. Well with life, it's the same. I can't blame any one but myself but unlike DotA, there isn't a second chance with most of these mistakes. There's only room for improvement.

It's the same with relationships. Every time I lose a person I love, I look back and see the mistakes I've made. They're quite obvious actually, and I don't know why I don't pick them out when I am during that relationship.

But I guess I've changed my views on relationships a couple of times.

These recent posts have been rather short.

Ihope the next one will be more interesting. I hope I can update this blog frequently, maybe once a day or sometimes once every two days. But to come up with these ideas.. I need to look up at the sky and dwell deeply. Wish me luck.

Welcome back

Hi I'm Henry, nice to meet you again.

Welcome back. Please stay.

Don't change.

And just a random Titanic quote.. I love that movie :'(.

Jack:
"Well, yes, ma'am, I do... I mean, I got everything I need right here with me. I got air in my lungs, a few blank sheets of paper. I mean, I love waking up in the morning not knowing what's gonna happen or, who I'm gonna meet, where I'm gonna wind up. Just the other night I was sleeping under a bridge and now here I am on the grandest ship in the world having champagne with you fine people. I figure life's a gift and I don't intend on wasting it. You don't know what hand you're gonna get dealt next. You learn to take life as it comes at you... to make each day count."

Teshima

This blog post is dedicated to a man called Teshima.

Teshima is the creator of a free arcade shooting game called Silver Knights.

I've stopped playing Silver Knights, but it was one of the few greatest games in my childhood. I used to wake up very early to play it and it somewhat got me very excited. My legs would jump every time I was smashing a button (don't laugh at me). And I remember my parents walking past each time, commenting on that bad habbit. I took control of it eventually.

Anyways, the whole point of this post is to thank Teshima and wish him the best of lucks. As you may have guessed already, he's a Japanese. He lives in Japan (don't say "no shit") and earthquakes have hit Japan so often in the past few years.

Silver Knights was Teshima's dream. He made it cos he enjoyed it. He would put it on hiatus now and then, but every six months or so he would come back to that "project" (the game is still in development but it's awesome).

It's been two years since the last update for Silver Knights. The last feedback that Teshima suggests that he will be getting back to it. As for the meantime, all us Silver Knights fans have our fingers cross.

I(we) hope that he has recovered from the problems.

Dreams have been destroyed, relatives have probably been lost. Good luck Teshima!

New start.. Perhaps

Ignore my previous posts if you can...

Anyways, I'm hoping for a fresher "beginning" for this blog :/. Warning though, it's still depressing.

So we were at Sydney today.. and I made the observations as usual.

But before that, I had to find a way to get there of course. What really interested me was the fact that my dad offered me a lift. It was sort of unusual. I don't talk to him much and he doesn't either and I hate myself for that. My mum said the other day that she's ashamed (not exactly the right word but somewhere around that line) of me cos I don't open conversations with them (my parents). And I thought that I would visit them in the future when I move out.. but what would I say to them.

I'm a bad son.

So my dad was driving me and it was all quiet. Normally, I would walk to the station but he offered me a lift. When I was about to get off the car, I wanted to say thank you for the lift and say bye like any good son in Vietnam would.

I didn't have the courage.

And that had made me thought of the time when I did do that kind of stuff. I'd say hello or bye to my parents formally everytime I leave or come home with an added bow. I don't do that any more.

Moving to Australia has been different. The expectations, culture and everything is so different. My mum says stuff like "Don't be like the kids over here, they're rude". And it's just so hard to be like that. Fitting in and all. I remember vaguely this one time when I came home from school in Australia. My mum asked me "Why don't you say hello and bow" and so I did as she asked. Before, I wouldn't have to be asked to do that. Now, I don't even do it at all.

So in Sydney there were bums on the paths holding signs asking for help and I felt helpless myself. Every life has a story behind them and it gets me thinking. Yes, this part does not make sense. But perhaps, the whole point of some of my posts are to get people to think each individual line and somehow connect them with the next line. They're merely fragments of my thoughts; there's just so much to say for me.

And then as we walked using the pedestrian lights or whatever, I noticed how crowded it was.

China here we come.